SO not ready for this!

I really thought this was going to be a happy day for Molly. We spent the whole evening yesterday doing the pre-school happy dance to get her excited (and to get ME ready!). She seemed SO excited, laid out her clothes, packed her lunch, and happily went to bed with visions of a happy day at preschool dancing in her head. Then she woke up. She was a little nervous but I just kept everything positive and even took her to McDonalds for breakfast. We got to school about 15 minutes early, which, for anyone who knows me, is a huge deal. We sat in the van and laughed and talked. When it was time to go in she seemed excited but just a little nervous. Well, my friends, it went straight downhill from there. We went into her class and she would not let go of me. She begged me to stay and clung to me like a little spider monkey with a hair bow! I finally had to pass her off to Mrs. Gina. She cried the saddest little cry and just reached for me. It was awful. I got in the car and just LOST it. I cried the whole way home and have not been able to stop. I called to check on her and they said "well, she is not crying but she is very sad and lookes really mad!" I do feel that it was the right choice to send her to pre-school. I know for sure that the 5 day a week kindergarten next year would be impossible without this to prepare her. BUT, it is stil hard. She is my BABY. I dropped all three of my kids off at SCHOOL today. That breaks my heart. The baby stage of my life is over. Like, really over. I will never have a baby at home with me again. (unless I can convince Robbie otherwise!). I called Robbie in tears and he tried to comfort me by telling me that "it is time for new memories in this new stage of our lives and the kids lives". Whatever. haha. I wish that I could go back to when my kids were little and do it over. Do it better. And savor every second even more than before. I am SO thankful to be a mommy. It is all I ever wanted. I am just not ready for this stage to be over.